reflection.

i wish it was just an illusion.
cause now i'm in a real desperation.
watching you smile for no reason.
you've found another replacement.

is it only my imagination?
or it's the truth i've never known?
that you've already gone.
from the story of our imagination.

i used to be your inspiration.
having our own heart's sensation.
talking about our next generation.
in our secret location.

i'm still looking for my reflection.
where there's a smile that's still remain.
when all i see is pain.
and eyes that's going to keep issuing this rain.

the best mistake

"come back"
i used to say that words since the day you've gone from my life.
"i miss you"
i used to say those words when all the flashbacks comes
but now, i don't even know what to say.
cause even i've wasted all of my tears on you, you will never come back.
i know because i cried.
and even if i beg you a thousand times you'll never come back.
i know because i tried.

do all those moments we've shared together is just a bullshit and all those sweet words you said is just a lie? cause baby, i trusted it all.
and even if this was the very last moment we'd see each other again.. i still have that feelings that's keeps me wishing on my 11:11 , my birthday candle wishlist or the wishing star.

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but as day by day pass by..
i always questioning myself .. 'why did you go? why did you leave me behind? where's all those promises we've made together? is it all my fault for letting you pass by? or i'm just too fool to believe you with those kind of bullshit?'

ahh.. it's just too complicated to say.
maybe.. just maybe if we could have another time, another place and another chance to start this all over again. it'd be so different..
but, do you want to know a secret?
even if on the first place we started all of this 'mistake' , and i know that it'd hurt me so much. i'd still do this anyway.
cause you are the best mistake i could ever have.
and you are the kind of mistake that i will never regret even just for a second.



---- and baby, if loving you was wrong, i don't wanna be right ----

growing up

there's a story.
we all know this story 'cause i bet you all have this kind of feeling.
the feeling of sorrow, pain, and mad at the same time.
hurt by our own feelings, for being too care, think that all the things we've done isn't good enough, feeling lonely, but most of all we all hurt by losing.
wishing we all could go back to our first place
and we're keep saying "i wish.." or "if.."

let's just go back to that day. a few years ago.
that years.. so much to remember.
when we used to sit side by side, laugh without any compulsion.
be who we wanna be and never force ourselves with those kind of shit.

we all used to run and fall.
we bleed and we cry.
we dream and we laugh.
we smile and we love.

but we're just too fool to realize that growing up isn't as sweet as it seems.
we're all once dreamed about growing up and never stopped wishing about it.
with no intention to wait we all rushed out of time and now, see what we've got?
we all get our own disappointment.
so naive? do you regret it? ask yourself.
because i do..

A Thousand Years Lyrics

 

(Verse 1) Heart beats fast 

Colors and promises  

How to be brave 

How can I love when I'm afraid  

To fall But watching you stand alone  

All of my doubt  

Suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer
 

(Chorus) I have died everyday waiting for you  

Darlin' don't be afraid  

I have loved you for a thousand years 

I'll love you for a thousand more

 
(Verse 2) Time stands still  

Beauty in all she is 

I will be brave

I will not let anything  

Take away 

What's standing in front of me  

Every breath, every hour has come to this
One step closer

 
(Chorus) I have died everyday  

Waiting for you  

Darlin' don't be afraid I have loved you for a thousand years 

 I'll love you for a thousand more
And all along I believed I would find you  

Time has brought Your heart to me 

 I have loved you for a thousand years 

I'll love you for a thousand more
One step closer One step closer

 
(Chorus) I have died everyday waiting for you  

Darlin' don't be afraid, I have loved you for a thousand years  

I'll love you for a thousand more
And all along I believed I would find you 

Time has brought your heart to me  

I have loved you for a thousand years

I'll love you for a thousand more

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Payphone - Maroon 5 ft.Wiz Khalifa

I'm at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone, baby it's all wrong
 Where are the plans we made for two?

Yeah, I, I know it's hard to remember,
The people we used to be
It's even harder to picture,
That you're not here next to me.
You say it's too late to make it,
But is it too late to try?
And in our time that you wasted
All of our bridges burned down
I've wasted my nights,
You turned out the lights
Now I'm paralyzed,
Still stuck in that time,
When we called it love,
But even the sun sets in paradise I'm at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone, baby it's all wrong
Where are the plans we made for two?

If "Happy Ever After" did exist,
I would still be holding you like this
[Video:] All those fairy tales are full of shit
[Album:] All those fairy tales are full of it.
[Video:] One more fucking love song, I'll be sick.
[Album:] One more stupid love song, I'll be sick

Oh, you turned your back on tomorrow
'Cause you forgot yesterday.
I gave you my love to borrow,
But you just gave it away.
You can't expect me to be fine,
I don't expect you to care
I know I've said it before,
But all of our bridges burned down
I've wasted my nights,
You turned out the lights
Now I'm paralyzed,
Still stuck in that time,
When we called it love,
But even the sun sets in paradise

I'm at a payphone trying to call home
All of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone,
baby it's all wrong
Where are the plans we made for two?

If "Happy Ever After" did exist, I would still be holding you like this
[Video:] All those fairy tales are full of shit
[Album:] All those fairy tales are full of it.
[Video:] One more fucking love song, I'll be sick.
[Album:] One more stupid love song, I'll be sick
 Now I'm at a payphone
[Clean radio version verse:] Yeah, Yeah, Now baby don't hang up, So I can tell you what you need to know, Baby I'm begging you just please don't go, So I can tell you what you need to know
[Explicit version verse (Wiz Khalifa):] Man, fuck that shit I'll be out spending all this money
While you're sitting round wondering
Why it wasn't you who came up from nothing,
Made it from the bottom Now when you see me I'm stunning,
And all of my cars start with a push of a button
Telling me the chances I blew up
Or whatever you call it,
Switch the number to my phone
So you never could call it,
Don't need my name on my shirt,
You can tell it I'm ballin.
Swish, what a shame could have got picked
Had a really good game but you missed your last shot
So you talk about who you see at the top
Or what you could have saw but sad to say it's over for.
Phantom pulled up valet open doors
Wiz like go away, got what you was looking for
Now it's me who they want, so you can go and take
That little piece of shit with you.

I'm at a payphone trying to call home All of my change I spent on you
Where have the times gone, baby it's all wrong
Where are the plans we made for two?
If "Happy Ever After" did exist, I would still be holding you like this
[Video:] All those fairy tales are full of shit
[Album:] All those fairy tales are full of it.
[Video:] One more fucking love song, I'll be sick.
[Album:] One more stupid love song, I'll be sick
Now I'm at a payphone..