I just feel confused and sad
I mean..
People say if someone really care about you they'll always make time for you
But some people say that there's no perfect love, but there's always someone who's perfect for you
"Just because someone can't love you that way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with everything they have"
I always think like that. Cause I know I can't love him perfectly the way he wants me to.
But I just don't get it
He always cancel our date hahaha
And he likes to break his promises. I know it's just a promise, a little one
No big deal
But it's matter for me
At first it's all okay.
But.. Day by day, it's getting worse.
Sometimes I think that's he's just busy
I'm not supposed to be selfish. Ask for more. Or even mad, cause it'll hurt him
But I'm dying. Cause it's fucking hurt
Almost every night I feel the pain
But back at my point, I'm not supposed to ask for more, maybe he's just busy... Super busy :')
Hah. In not supposed to say this
Or even think
Or write this down
But may I say something?
Is it my fault for always waiting for you? Stay up all night and don't mind to got sick even tired in the morning waiting for you?
Is it my fault waiting for you? Cause only at night you have just a 'little' time for me
Am I wrong to be clingy, naughty or selfish just to get your attention? Your little, just a little care from you?
Cause Idk if you ever really care.
I mean.. Is that really 'love' that you have for me?
Or just an illusion ?
Cause what I know -- and what people always told me -- that if he really cares. He won't ignore you
He never say 'hi' even in real life, it's okay
He never really ask me to go out with him without canceling it :') is it so hard? HAHA
Funny how the one I never expected to be there was the one who always give me attention. Who care about me and accompany me, when you should be the one who do that
Funny you never talked about our relationship. Maybe you feel ashamed? Idk
Funny how I have to pretend like there's nothing between us
Well it's not your fault exactly, in the one who never being honest and tell you everything I hide inside
I just don't wanna hurt you
But for once. Really just for once, may I act a little selfish and cry?
Ask for your attention.
Cause I'm losing control now
How if you're the one who my friends always talked about? They laugh at you and all I say was just " be patient dear"
How if i ignore you the way you ignore me?
How if we switched position?
What would you do?
Tell me
"Cause I'm dying to know is it killing you like it's killing me?"
Hah..
Well i guess It's okay now
I'm used to it
I really do.. I used to be ignored and dumped
Even now with the one I really care about
The one I thought would never do that
But I feel that way
Sorry. In clingy, selfish, childish, annoys you ad disturbing.
It's not your fault
Maybe it's mine for expecting too much
Sorrysorrysorry but I'm tired
It's enough ;")
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